My Goodreads Rating: 3.5 Stars
When a beloved high schooler named Lucinda Hayes is found murdered, no one in her sleepy Colorado suburb is untouched—not the boy who loved her too much; not the girl who wanted her perfect life; not the officer assigned to investigate her murder. In the aftermath of the tragedy, these three indelible characters—Cameron, Jade, and Russ—must each confront their darkest secrets in an effort to find solace, the truth, or both.
Are psychological thrillers the books for me?
I have to admit, that this is a very new genre for me. I think the only other psychological thriller novel that I have read, was The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins. Well, I guess you could classify The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon as a thriller, but I wouldn’t say it’s psychological….it’s more historical fiction.
So this is is pretty new territory for me and that begs the question of whether or not I will continue on with the genre after reading this book. The answer is yes, but in small quantities and not very frequently. Now, I will try to explain why this is the case in the following paragraphs.
I realize that the creepiness factor is kind of a necessity when it comes to thrillers….especially PSYCHOLOGICAL thrillers. Nonetheless though, I’m still debating how much of this I can take. This book was filled with characters that confused me and creeped me out.
It seemed almost like at the end of each chapter, there would be a sentence from the character’s perspective that was so incredibly out there that I would automatically think, “That’s it! They’re the killer! They must be! Only the killer would know that information! Only the killer would think something like that, right?”.
Honestly, the fact that every chapter ended this way, made me not want to put this book down. I was so engrossed in the story and could not stop turning page after page.
Therefore, I can probably sum up how I feel by saying that this book was really good and something I couldn’t put down, but at the same time, it was so creepy that I think I can only handle small doses of something like this again in the future. However, we’ll just have to wait and see…
Not Everyone is What You Perceive Them As
I know I keep saying that a lot of the characters in this story are really creepy (and they are), but I was also able to empathize with their struggles and their longings. I think that is the sign of really good character development.
This story really tried to empathize the fact that you will never be able to fully know another person without actually being them. This is the case, no matter how close you are towards them.
“You can only see fifty-nine percent of the moon from the earth’s surface. No matter where you go, in the entire world, you’ll only ever see the same face. That fifty-nine percent.”
“Why are you telling me this?”
“I’m just saying. We know this fact, but it doesn’t stop us from staring.”
I think this lesson also played a big role in the way that I perceived the characters. There were a couple of characters who I borderline hated at the beginning, but as it got towards the end, I realized that I only hated them because of the way that I perceived them from the outside. Once I knew their motives, it changed my perspective a tad bit. I’m not saying that it made me absolutely love them, but it did make me not completely hate them. There was one character though that I did end up liking.
That’s the beauty of books and how we are able to see into a character’s thoughts. Anyways, I’m not going to say any more because you should go into the story knowing very little about the specifics of any of the people.
I really enjoyed the writing in this book. It was beautiful and I personally found it really easy to read. Also, there were few quotes that kept reminding me of ways that John Green usually phrases and describes things.
About halfway through this story, I was ready to classify it as a creepy/philosophical/mysterious/John Greenish type book. Seriously, this book was way more philosophical than I was expecting. If you’ve read this already and totally disagree with me, that’s ok, that is just what I kept thinking while reading it. Here are some quotes so you can see what I’m talking about….
- “Shock is just sadness that hasn’t reached the gut”
- “A series of plateaus. You keep sliding down, and eventually, you hit the water. You look around at the black and endless expanse, and you swim because you’ve known no other landscape. You’re sure that on the other side of the reservoir there’s another mountain waiting, with other cliffs.”
- ” It makes you wonder, doesn’t it– how it’s possible to be a secondary character in your own story.”
- “Pine Ridge Point was like the middle of your favorite song– between the bridge and the chorus, where you held your breath and waited for the inevitable boom of music to take you away.”